The day has finally arrived. The time has come, for the testament to be read. My mind has been racing on for the whole day. But one thing now I know for sure is: it's over.
I know, i have done things, rude things that made them dislike me. I realise, that the source of this ending is coming from me myself. For too long, I'm ignorant, arrogant, and in denial. Humans, are one strange kind of mammal. You will not truly realise, after the consequence is right in front of you. I knew that it's not a good thing to express freely through words. But still, I have done it. The skill of perseverance and humble, are the skill I still need to hone. Words, is more powerful than any weapon on earth. A knife or a bullet, can only harm your very flesh. Words, on the other hand, can not only harm your soul, it can harm anyone around you, including yourself. For now, I know I'm not the best guy to be with.
I wish I have not written those things I wrote. But, what done is done. The damage is done. Nothing can reverse and undone it. People, especially the one I cared the most, and her people surrounds her have been hurt by my words. I will bear the consequences that I have caused. What goes around comes around. All I want to do, is to apologise for my rudeness.
To whom that it may concern: I'm sorry.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Roller Coaster of Life 3 - Mask
19 years, 9 months and 16 days, The Dark Knight have lived. Almost going to reach the second decade of life. For so long, The Dark Knight have been to so many places, so many occasion, and seen so much people. Different kind of people.. Everyday, the moment I step out into the street, I can see so many unfamiliar faces pass by. Faces I do not recognise, faces that maybe I only see once in my lifetime, or faces that I will look at for many parts of my life. But still, these faces are all masks. Everyone will present their disguised face, with their own designed mask, the moment they come in contact with human being. Some would say that they are sincere, they present who they are, unfortunately, no matter how you say it, there will be some part that you will only keep to yourself. This a fact. Nothing can change it.
As for me, I admit that I have my own designed mask. Everyday, the moment I open my door, I have already wore on a mask, which everyone will see, or accurately, the mask that most people would like to see. Many people say that we must be honest, we must be true to yourself, so not lie to people. Lying is wrong. But, whoever said this, aren't they wearing a mask? Are they definitely sure that they stripped away all their mask, all their disguise, all their denials? I guess no. Living in this world, it's not about how sincere you are, it's not about how true you are, it's all about how you present yourself. I guess many would disagree with me. The mask on their faces, already wore too long, too often. Long enough that you think that you are what you disguising. People lost their own identity, to the cruelty of this world.
Flying across the sea, landed on a brand new place, it's a brand new adventure for the Dark knight. The Dark knight is entering into another chapter of life, a chapter where the warm hands of parents will seldom be felt, a chapter where The Dark Knight himself will have to face on his own. Entering into this chapter, Dark knight have gone through a lot of things, and seen a lot of faces. The face of backstabbers, the face of dictators, the face of power claws. Unfortunately, these are the faces that control most part of the world. These are the faces that make other lives difficult, while making their own better. Darkness surrounds the hearts of people. However, from the overwhelming darkness, there are a glimpse of light. These light, are lighted by the faces of friend, the face of concern and the face of love. Many people, too engrossed in their own darkness, and they will never see the light.
I will not angry with these people, cause they are too pity for themselves. Living a life, where darkness is all they see, there is no point in angry with them. Anger, rush, and hatred will not make them discover the light, another way round, it will only fuel their darkness. One thing i do not understand is, some people are just too shrouded by their own perceptions, where they will never ever see things from other's point of view. Giving presents, for someone's birthday, is just a normal thing to do. I can't figure out why, someone take it as a threat, as a hatred. What's wrong with giving present to a person celebrating her birthday? Anyway, i pity those with such narrow minded person. I hope something enable them to see things with wider prospective.
Mask, is the face of people. That's what I see from this world. I have my own perspective of live, I have my own life to live, and I have my own mask. Like it or not, I am what I wanna be. To those who would like to interfere with my life, there is one word for you, "pathetic". Have a pleasant Christmas and a happy new year!
As for me, I admit that I have my own designed mask. Everyday, the moment I open my door, I have already wore on a mask, which everyone will see, or accurately, the mask that most people would like to see. Many people say that we must be honest, we must be true to yourself, so not lie to people. Lying is wrong. But, whoever said this, aren't they wearing a mask? Are they definitely sure that they stripped away all their mask, all their disguise, all their denials? I guess no. Living in this world, it's not about how sincere you are, it's not about how true you are, it's all about how you present yourself. I guess many would disagree with me. The mask on their faces, already wore too long, too often. Long enough that you think that you are what you disguising. People lost their own identity, to the cruelty of this world.
Flying across the sea, landed on a brand new place, it's a brand new adventure for the Dark knight. The Dark knight is entering into another chapter of life, a chapter where the warm hands of parents will seldom be felt, a chapter where The Dark Knight himself will have to face on his own. Entering into this chapter, Dark knight have gone through a lot of things, and seen a lot of faces. The face of backstabbers, the face of dictators, the face of power claws. Unfortunately, these are the faces that control most part of the world. These are the faces that make other lives difficult, while making their own better. Darkness surrounds the hearts of people. However, from the overwhelming darkness, there are a glimpse of light. These light, are lighted by the faces of friend, the face of concern and the face of love. Many people, too engrossed in their own darkness, and they will never see the light.
I will not angry with these people, cause they are too pity for themselves. Living a life, where darkness is all they see, there is no point in angry with them. Anger, rush, and hatred will not make them discover the light, another way round, it will only fuel their darkness. One thing i do not understand is, some people are just too shrouded by their own perceptions, where they will never ever see things from other's point of view. Giving presents, for someone's birthday, is just a normal thing to do. I can't figure out why, someone take it as a threat, as a hatred. What's wrong with giving present to a person celebrating her birthday? Anyway, i pity those with such narrow minded person. I hope something enable them to see things with wider prospective.
Mask, is the face of people. That's what I see from this world. I have my own perspective of live, I have my own life to live, and I have my own mask. Like it or not, I am what I wanna be. To those who would like to interfere with my life, there is one word for you, "pathetic". Have a pleasant Christmas and a happy new year!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)